Pet Memorials

Newton my little angel baby minpin

Listening to: Love is here and now your gone!!!

Today is a very very sad day for me; I just learned through text messages of all avenues that my dog; NEWTON just died.

I am so so so so hurt because I never realized that he would ever die! EVER!!!!

This brings reality so close to home for me - one day i guess i will die.

This is SO SAD for me.

Never in my life except for my grandfather and my uncle dying did i ever feel the hurt that I feel right now.

It's not like the pain I felt everyday in my childhood

No, this pain is much depper routed in my soul.

My dog was the best dog in the world! he made me laugh, gave me an outlet outside of the people rhelm, mad, but most of all he was always there. I only had him for about 3 years but he love me through all of them as I did him.

He produced three of the most beautiful puppies I have ever seen
Spunky
Lil' buddy
and the other too young to have named

He lived a long life and gave me happiness that I haven't shared with another until I received my girl dog - Newton's girlfriend- Ruby.

I love both of these dogs eqully with all my heart.

Nobody knows the amount of love I hold for both of my babies. The love I have is pure and felt for nothing else.

As I sit here listenging to the death all around - from Michael Jackson to my dog Ruby being given away and my little angel Newton, i realize that these days are coming to an end.

Not only is jesus coming in our very near future but i think with Newton's passing it's gearing me up for a real blow. Someone very close to me. That is really what scares me :(

I'm so upset but most of all hurt by all the things that "could have" or "should have" happened.
I think life is full of should have's and could have's..... I don't want my life to be like this anymore.

My heart breaks - as i read this text from Moses "Just so you know Newton died, and i (moses) gave Ruby away"
Just reading this and re-reading this makes my heart break.
he's such a small little being but has affected my heart in such a BIG way.

He was full of life and love! His best friend was Ruby - she too heartbroken!
For the past couple of days she has been whining and howling ever since -

I can't beleive this - my dog - my little angel dog is no longer in my life :(
He took the big plunge and drowned in a pool.
Where the %#@* was I?
Why couldn't he swim out?
Where was everyone????????

You think because we live in Arizona that the only thing we need to be afraid of is burning up- but no - not this baby dog

HE DROWNED!! My baby dog drowned at only 3 years of age

I don't know any details or how it happened but what i do know hurts.

I don't think i'll be able to sleep tonight - or at least get any restful sleep.

These dogs were my babies.
I stupidly and selfishly gave them away and was TOO BUSY to even see them.

Saturday, if i wasn't so busy, would have been the last time I could have seen them both together.

how many more people in my life am I going to brush off just because?
How much more pain can I take?
How will today affect tomorrow?

I'm jealous of the people that have died and have gone to live in heaven. That is the best place to ever be - not here on earth - NEVER on earth...

Newton know that I am on earth looking up to you. Pleas know I love you so tenderly.

What is my place on this earth? Am I that self absorbed not to understand that the little things matter more than how much money I make, who i Know, what my skills are, how high ranking in my job i can get.

THESE THINGS ARE ALL TRIVIAL!!!!

What the %#@* is wrong with me - with this world?

I will sit here for hours and wonder what had gone wrong, what I could have done better, what I should have done and at the end of those hours I'll remember the good times me and my angel Newton had.

I've posted pictures of my pups - that I hope you enjoy; although you will never see the depth and joy these guys gave me in them. Know that these dogs were all I had

I love them with all my heart!
Newton - I wish I could hold you in my lap one last time
I wish I could play fetch and take you for walks
I wish I could hug you and kiss you on your little boney forehead
I wish I visited you one last time -
I wish you were still alive
I wish you could see how much you were loved
I wish you did not leave me like you did.
I wish that in your death you did not suffer
I wish to see you in heaven little buddy.

I wish that you live forever in my heart!!!!

I love you little buddy - know that these last three years of life made me so happy little BUDDY.